The next three blog post will be very personal, I’ve decided to split it into three parts as not to bore you too much 😉
Part one will focus on the physical restriction I had and have while living in a morbidly obese body. What I discuss and share here will be my own views, opinions and personal experiences and not scientific information.
Most normal weight people or even just slightly overweight people don’t really understand what we go through as a morbidly obese person. Things that seem like normal every day activities or just normal movements to most people can be really challenging to us bigger people. For me every movement every step I took caused me pain. When playing with the kids sitting on the ground wasn’t too bad except for my feet and legs falling asleep but the moment it’s time to get up from the ground that’s the mission. Just imagine how it must feel for a morbidly obese person to lift their weight (+150 kg) from the ground, I promise you it’s not easy. Another big challenge was bathing, I could not fit into a normal bath so I always had to shower and if I could fit there was just no room to move around and then once again there was the struggling of getting out of the bath.
I can understand how most morbidly obese people become reclusive, it’s not easy feeling every stranger in your vicinity staring at you or making ugly comments. When visiting someone you need to be so careful on what chair you sit as you don’t want to break their furniture. Buying furniture like couches or a bed the first thing you think is “will it hold my weight?” Going shopping with someone in the back of your mind you are visualizing the building layout thinking of ways to bypass the stairs, NOT because you are lazy but just because your back and knees can’t handle climbing up those stairs, climbing down is much easier. Even shopping around for a motor vehicle your first priority is ‘How easy can I get in and out? Will the safety belt fit around my body?’ We had to have extensions made for the safety belts in one of our cars otherwise we couldn’t buckle in.
Before I chose LCHF and changed my life normal everyday tasks like cooking, cleaning, ironing all those things were too much for me and my back just couldn’t take that weight anymore. When ironing clothes I had to sit down on a chair while doing it, prepping food I sat at the dining room table and then only stood when the cooking process started. Being morbidly obese your life become very restricted and some cope better with this than others.Then there’s the whole issue of finding clothes that fits you, most women have no choice but to wear men’s clothing and even men’s shoes as those are more readily available in bigger sizes. Joint pain becomes part of everyday life and I had to use a lot of painkillers and medication like Citro-Soda.
One of the worst feeling in the world is when in your spirit and in your heart you feel like doing things you like but physically it’s just not possible, like dancing I used to LOVE dancing. And yes you learn to adapt to all your limitations but it’s never easy and it does take a mental and physical toll on us. You keep pushing yourself every day to do more and be better but deep down you feel like there is no hope.
I’m not writing these post so you can pity me, NO, I’m writing them to help others understand better so they won’t be so quick to judge. Stay tuned for part 2, the psychological implications of living in a morbidly obese body.